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January 23rd, 2013 (02:04 pm)

I feel like writing today. Robins scum-sucking shitbag ex friend nicked my iPad and used the cash to fund his mongoloid escapades. The whole of yesterday morning was spent crying and talking to cops(who are fucking useless) and Apple Support(screw-ups), calling the Virginia Unemployment insurance fraud hotline(he's sponging off the system because he's legally retarded and a disgusting slob who, in another time, would have been locked away from decent honest people in a state-run institution festering in his own shit) chainsmoking, and cursing this dickhead's name.

what I have taken from the experience was that eugenics isn't an all-together terrible idea. people just think it is becase they immediately associate it with the Nazis. there is a bias. Also I think a lot of people have not met a lot of people who are truly just a useless bain on society and contribute nothing of any good or valuable, and generally just hinder the well-being of good people.

That is why I refuse to go on foodstamps;not out of pride but because I am an able-bodied young woman who works for a living and if I misspend my money that is my own doing and it's pretty much myown fault that I'm eating one bowl of buttered noodles and sriracha sauce once a day because I didn't better plan for needing food and gas money. Besides, there are people worse off than I am who need it more than I do I'd feel dirty taking govt handouts.

Robin is once again out of work but has been going to heaps of interviews. He's trying, we both are, but things never seem to get better. Especially after this setback.

I pray that we willbe married and living in England in a year's time.


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April 4th, 2011 (08:02 pm)

George is coming home without finishing his treatment. He won't tell me how long the doctors said he has without it. He probably won't seek out more in the future. I don't know how to handle this. I will be completely realistic and honest with you: I do not have the maturity or stability to handle this. I can not be a widow before I'm 30. If he goes, I go. I've well made up my mind.

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March 15th, 2011 (06:04 pm)

one week down, two to go(hopefully) I flipped out and blurted it out to my family out of anger and frustration because I'm tired of being hated and scapegoated and for whatever reason I'm stupid enough to still want to explain myself and seek their approval. I kept it secret because I knew they wouldn't care anyway. Shit they wouldn't care if I myself had it, much less the only person who has never made me feel anything less than deserving of love and being treated like a human being and like someone of value to the world.

I want to be by myself until he comes back. I wish I could be happier and more hopeful because he's only got two more weeks. I'm just scared and angry and confused why this happened to him, when he really deserves all the happiness in the world and to not hurt and suffer.

I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I can not imagine life without him, I don't want to, and I refuse to live it.

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February 26th, 2011 (09:33 pm)

You know what? I'm fucking done. I am done with everyone. I'm tired of every annoying insufferable fucking twat. I'm in a really bad place right now. My boyfriend has cancer, I can't forget the abandonment, I'm going through a bad bout of depression and crippling social anxiety paired with misanthropy that grows every day, I simply can not handle people and their stupid rude shit anymore.

Nothing gets better and I'm tired of it. If I'm not sad, I'm constantly just frustrated and kind of just angry at everything, just waiting to lash out again. Nothing makes me feel better.

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February 9th, 2011 (03:54 pm)
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Oh My GOD just shut up shut up shut up. You and your stupid self-vaildating comments about how beautiuful and flawless(lol newsflash you're a stupid putrid ugly bitch inside and out and you know it hence your bragging about how supposedly beautiful you are) and utterly fucking retarded, edgy and punk rawk you are are the epitome of no1curr.

You are truly as basic as a fucking undershirt.

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December 31st, 2010 (10:40 am)

I have found that people who whine and cry and baw about everything needing to be an impossible saccarine PC dreamworld, where we obviously would not be able to say or do anything because it would be privileged or ablest or just plain hurt someones gosh darn feelings, are typically horrible, insufferable, phony assholes who frequently hurt others.

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December 26th, 2010 (02:39 am)
current mood: lousy
current song: The Kinks - Waterloo Sunset | Powered by Last.fm

Ugh wish I had the notes feature. I can't with some of these people. So much that I need to frequently be reminded just how much I can't.Maybe I'm just in one of those arrogant-as-fuck moods in which I find nearly everyone insufferable.

My Christmas was mediocre. I miss George. I never sleep anymore.

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December 21st, 2010 (02:22 am)

I think the US should incorporate more UK English into our collective vernacular. It's kind of very whimsical. How cool would it be if we started referring to vacationers as "holidaymakers," bathing suits become "bathing costumes" and in these hard economic times, "skint" is a useful one.

God that sounds so Peggy Hill.

so, out of the blue, George has this idea that we should move to Amsterdam within a year, if all goes according to plan(and if you've been following, dear reader, nothing does so why should this?) so he can work on creative pursuits. I'm not holding my breath, over here)He's still in France, still has pneumonia, his father still refuses to talk to him.

I feel like I'm transferring all my bad energies that make my life so shitty onto him. It worries me and makes me feel guilty. This year has not been an easy one for either of us. At this point we're all the other has.

lol I was supposed to be in bed over an hour ago. So long, attempt to normalize sleep schedule.

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December 9th, 2010 (10:10 am)

Goddamn, knitting is some tedious shit.

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December 1st, 2010 (11:51 am)

I got a call from George yesterday. I told him I moved on but I still love him. He's supposed to be leaving on the 15, and we'll most likely elope, should this all come to fruition. Apparently he sent me loads of letters but they never got here.

I don't know what the fuck to think anymore.

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